Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Finally left one with more episode down for my show. I'm attempting to leave it for tomorrow yet I'm filled with anxiousness. Can't wait to see that ending! I'm always having this "empty" kind of feeling cause the show ended. Guess probably the reason why I'm having so much thoughts at night.Sometimes, life could seem so short and yet so long. Currently, I'm having my holidays and it felt like I'm still having my exams. Next semester is coming, I'm turning 21 soon. It's so scary, scary how things move at such a fast speed when you are enjoying it. Yet when you dread it so much, it felt as though the clock stopped moving. Reasons why weekends seem to pass extremely quickly.
I'm always saying "Can't wait to finish degree man, really can't take it, super duper stress". It's true, I still can't wait but after I'm done what the hell am I going to do with my life. But that's common isn't it? We just got to pat our backs and tell ourselves "Time to look for a job". And life goes on.
Okayyyyy.. Time to stop being so negative. Every night, when I have nothing to do, I start having negative thoughts. Sometimes, I even wonder why am I so damn negative when I could spend all these time on working out or being more fruitful. But it's just so empty every night :( Too stressed up -> Wants to take a break after exams -> Decided not to work -> Home everyday -> No income -> Cannot go out cause no extra money other than allowance or shopping -> Watch shows -> No more shows -> Negative thoughts.
I'm a nuts.
Anyway, let's do the routine before my dear memory fail on me again.
Oh, I met Heather today. And it didn't even felt awkward somehow. Felt like the good old times when we just gossip and annoy the fuck out of each other. The last time I saw her was about a year ago. Since the both of us made this effort to step out, I hope this friendship can strengthen and be back like before. But it's so hard since things change so much.. Really wish the whole PP clique can come back together, but it's never ever. Since most of the quarrels start because of me. It's so hard to change my temper :( Maybe it's life, telling us once again to cherish the things and people we love cause ultimately everything comes to an end. Only when it ends, then we will know how much we regret to cherish. But someone once told me to never ever regret what you do. So I'll leave that to fate. Like what people say friendships come and go, only the best one will stay. And I hope my best friend fatty lee never leaves me. Sometimes its just such a pain in the ass when your best friend becomes your best friend. Break up how? Hmpfff...
Okay enough of the madness and boring shit. After demanding Koi for about a week. She gave me a treat. Haha probably because I have been bugging for it and probably because she won Toto. Lucky bitch.
ACCEPTANCE 4:01 AM
